I really wasn't sure how I felt about gay marriage. I always leaned against it. I was was so happy for Ellen, and seeing her joy with her marriage soften my resolve against the whole gay marriage thing. Then after I listened to Keith (twice) he said something that made me totally change my mind. "Whats it to me" He is right it's not for me to judge. It is about love. That's it in a nutshell. People should have their chance to love and be together as a couple in marriage.

1 - People have told me that I'd like Olbermann. I see why now. Thanks, Ellen. I shared the link with my Facebook gang and hope everyone else will.

2 - Dido is amazing! I sure hope I get the CD.

may I add:

When I was 5 I had a hot kindergarten teacher that made my heart flutter, my first grade teacher!, my 3rd grade teacher made me hot!, my girlfriends I felt more than friendship but they didn't know until we arm wrestled and I snuck a kiss!!!, my college roommate I had a thing for, I dated 4 guys in college all at the same time to fight it.. make it go away.. force myself to be straight to not be weird..sicko, and then I met a girl at a bible study and I shared my bible with her and we became really good friends. This was a defining moment for me. Yep I'm gay. But then I tried to fight it again and dated more guys.. I can fight this.. maybe I havn't met the right guy yet.. I know I've always felt different.. I wanted to be a boy. I liked watching Love Boat..had a crush on the leading lady!, Miss America was a great show!, I always knew I was diffrent..something not right with me. But after a lot of soul searching and realization that I can't change.. that I have to be me..'cause if I'm not I'm not honest with myself and I'm never going to find true happiness if I force myself to be who I am not. I hate dresses. I remember getting physically sick from wearing a dress.. but realize now it was car sickness.. but I was wearing a dress which they did nausiate me. Every Easter I was made to wear a stupid easter dress. I hated easter.. I liked the candy!!! I like Kenneth Cole clothing line and have always liked the mens/boys clothing dpts. I still shop the mens dpt.. I can now.. I'm an adult!!! HEeee When I came out to my friends and family they were like.. yeah.. we knew. My story sounds like some stories out there... its my story and I live it every day. I am much better at accepting myself but I struggled with it deeply due to my christian upbringing but my uncle who tried to hide it as well.. he actually was more devoted at hiding it and went through 2 marriages.. he really really tried to make it work.. but he too came to realize his true self and is much happier for it. He almost committed suicide because of it. My uncle has paved the way in my family for coming out as he did way before me!!! My cousin came out second. My half brothers daughter.. who's my cousin is a lesbian... and it just holds it into concrete for me as its hereditary.. so I can't deny it. I'm gay and thats it.. period. I wish I wasn't. I think I would have a house by now.. taken care of.. but instead I chose to be single and truthful with myself rather than be married to someone living a lie. .. and not truly happy. I don't want that... oog. nasty. I am happy single but would love to find someone and share my life with someday. I just have to get out there. Why should I be single and deny myself partnership?.. marriage. NOT. Ellen didn't make me gay... God did!!!! I only met Ellen.. knew she existed in 1996. Been a fan since.

I tend to think in reincarnation. How else do I explain my 5 yr old memory of that hot kindergarten teacher!

Ellen:)

I balled. Scars.. hurt surfaced. Keith said everything I've been trying to convey. Religious people .. yeah how can they preach one thing love thy neighbor and then turn around and point out that scripture verse that defines marriage as between a man and a woman. Who cares who you marry. Everyone should have the right to find love, marry & live happily ever after. Thank you soooo much for posting this. I am very troubled and hurt by this attack on my fellow americans rights to have the same love.. to find that someone and live together..share. I was going to write again about Prop 8, but felt that maybe I was doing more harm by talking about it.. but then I think we have to talk about it. Our rights are worth the fight.. the talking.. the educating of.. open up your eyes and see the world needs love.. why deny your neighbors this? DIDO to Keith.. AMEN!

I TOTALLY... everything Keith said.. I am down for it!!! I cried.. am crying now... I ache.. its very upseting. why can't people see???? They are blind.. hateful. God make 'em see... I pray! Compassion reign and freedom ring for everyone.

HEre's what I was going to add. I think of this a lot.. its bothering me.. I don't like it.. its not fair and its discriminating.

When I was in college I could have been married to the guy I was dating from meeting at a christian church. I felt fake. I felt like I was lying to myself and him.. wasn't honest with myself or him. I felt I was cheating him out of true happiness and true love.. the way it should be between two people. I was cheating myself out of true love, so I broke it off and didn't tell him the real reason 'cause I didn't want damnation. Instead I said.. this isn't working. You need to go find someone that is better for you. I sat him down and lovingly told him this.. I'm crying now... it was hard 'cause he was a good man.. a nice loving christian man that loved the Lord deeply. He showed nothing but honor and respect. We never kissed but he wanted to.. but I didn't want to make it harder for him... he felt more as a friend. It took 2 months after our breakup and I found out he had a new girlfriend and that they were getting married. I later found out through time.. he married her and they were expecting their first child. I set him free and he is where he should be happy in a marriage and may have lots of little kids.. probably grown now.. 15yr old or so. It never felt right.. the wrong puzzle piece until I came to terms with my love of women and was honest with myself. The first girl I kissed was 5 years ago and it was AMAZING. I realized... so this is what its supposed to feel like. I am not dating now.. but I know what I want.

Thanks Ellen!!!

Thank you Keith Olbermann!!!!!!!!

Lots of hugs....

I need love to. God wants me to have love and be happy...fulfilled!! I know this.. God created me and I shouldn't be ashamed.. I shouldn't hide it under a bushel NO!! I'm gonna let it shine!!!!! Let it shine... let it shine.. let it shine! :)